Concert day and ramblings, mostly ramblings because I have a lot to say!

Today was the big concert after a lot of long rehearsal hours during the week and every Saturday for four hours at a time listening to the same 7 songs over and over to the point where you start to sing along and do not even realize it.  I never thought I would say that I know the words to a Mylie Cyrus song but I do now, and I actually like it!  I am so cool!  The first band played newer music and the second band was going to play more classic music like Sweet Home Alabama, Jet air liner, and Bob Marley songs, music along that genre but the bad news is that it was mostly rained out and only the first band had a chance to perform but they were fantastic!  They were also asked to perform at another special event in a few weeks because they were so good.  The kids in the second band I know were disappointed because they all stayed until past 10:30 the other night practicing, such dedication.  

And now comes the ramblings.  

I do have to say I am a little proud of myself today. Some people from my past showed up to the concert today, and I felt nothing, just nothing, well I did feel pity and disappointment. Who are these people? They were like total strangers in the crowd, people I have never met before and never care to see again after they way the treated me.  I carried on about my business and did not give them even a second thought or even glance their way. I had a great time, and I was very happy.  My daughter did a phenomenal job, and when you get that feeling of pride that your child is being productive and doing what they love, it just completely wipes away any of the negative.  I know I have a lot to do with how my children are now and how they will turn out in the future and this is very important to me.  My girls mean everything to me, and I am a very hands on parent.  We are going through a lot now as a direct result of another person's selfish actions and total self-focus but we are getting through it like champs!  It is almost a non-issue at this point which is makes me very happy knowing my kids are being affected less and less every day by what has happened to them and we are managing just fine, better than just fine, great!  You have to tell your kids the truth at all times no matter how awful, and usually they can process the information, and they know who they can trust.  I admit in the beginning, I was very worried about my girls but it turns out, we are better off now than we were before, and it gets better every day! I think it is all about the behavior that you model for your kids and you show them you are there for them no matter what.  They need to know that they can depend on you and you will be there.  I am always available for my kids day or night, I would never leave them and they know it.  

Anyway, I think when people let you down, it stinks but when other people let you down so badly for a situation that was caused by another, you just have to stop and think, WOW, they are going to miss so, so much but it was their choice to make so they have to live with it. I am completely over it, and I am moving forward with my life for me and my girls, and all three of us are very happy. Especially me! The thing is, you cannot cut people out of your life when times get tough, you are either in it or not. Some people just want to be around for the good stuff but life does not work that way.  If you are truly family or a good friend, you are there for all of it.   I hope they feel they made the right choice because they made it, not me.  I did not deserve this at all.  I actually never saw it coming either but since the decision has been made, I am absolutely going along with it now without a doubt.  I feel so relieved.  If you willingly choose to leave my life because of the actions of another, good luck with that.  I hope it works out the way you planned but do not come knocking on my door when you realize that once again, you have been duped!